tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-26802003988272506642024-03-08T12:39:37.216-05:00No Really......Whatever's on my heart and mind. I pride myself on being honest so I apologize in advance. I just need to speak my mind somewhere so this would be the place.Anisearieshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17315709302315465630noreply@blogger.comBlogger5125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2680200398827250664.post-43209937474003570362009-06-24T14:54:00.002-04:002009-06-24T15:06:15.977-04:00Another Chapter<span style="font-family:georgia;">As I am closing another chapter in my life, I have a trillion things going through my mind. I am trying to get my site up & running (</span><a href="http://www.anisearies.com/"><span style="font-family:georgia;">www.anisearies.com</span></a><span style="font-family:georgia;">) give me a week or two. I had my first speaking engagement yesterday @ Bowie State University. I miss being on campus. The kids were a great experience. I wish I had gone to a writing camp at that age. I am thankful to God for pushing me because I can be lazy.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">Also the moving date is 07/15/2009. Woo friggin Hoo!!! I have learned a lot about life, men, and myself in the last four years. I may still have an attitude but I have improved a lot. I know what I truly want in a companion, just gotta find him or him me. I was disappointed in myself for a silly mistake I made but hey you only live once so I'm over it. I look forward to the new chapter in my life and know that I will receive the peace I much deserve.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">I read somewhere I should promote myself so.......If you don't have the book yet, Please visit </span><a href="http://stores.lulu.com/anisearies"><span style="font-family:georgia;">http://stores.lulu.com/anisearies</span></a><span style="font-family:georgia;"> or email me @ </span><a href="mailto:exploremyheartbook@yahoo.com"><span style="font-family:georgia;">exploremyheartbook@yahoo.com</span></a><span style="font-family:georgia;"> and I'll get a copy to you. This blog will become a lot more frequent and interesting when I gain freedom. Freedom Party coming soon.....It's gonna be a blast :)</span>Anisearieshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17315709302315465630noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2680200398827250664.post-36562866676395100772009-05-25T23:23:00.001-04:002009-05-26T09:30:59.109-04:00Letting Go....I am finally realizing that I MUST let go of all the anger I carry. I have had minor set backs in life but I need to get over it. I have a chip on my shoulder about some things but also realize I put too much faith in people. I know that GOD is the only one who always follows through. I have a sadness about me because I don't have everything I want. I am blessed and I know it so I try not to complain too much. <p>God created something special and I know this. I am not being conceited but I know God has big things in store for me. I'm just impatient and a lil crazy :). Working on this attitude is my top priority and I know the devil tries his best to bring me down. I rebuke the devil in Jesus Name, Amen. All that being said don't let people detour your plans.<br /></p>Anisearieshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17315709302315465630noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2680200398827250664.post-68445964935542522232009-05-13T19:41:00.002-04:002009-05-13T20:06:27.997-04:00PrerequisitesLet me just say the next man in my life is going through a thorough screening process. In the past I have tried to keep an open mind and not judge books by their covers. No more. I am 28 years old and it is time to find my companion, best friend, life partner, and husband?? I would love to get married but I do not need the paper, just the commitment. This is the longest I have ever been single and it gave me time to prioritize. I am willing to accept 14 out of 16 but Men step your game up. I do not need a dependent, I need a companion.<br /><br />He MUST:<br />Have some kind of spirituality-He doesn't have to be Bible toting but needs to know the Lord. Recognize that there is a higher power and respect that I believe in GOD and try to live by his word.<br /><br />Job-Need I say more?<br /><br />Education-He needs to stimulate my mind. I need book smart & a lil street smart. <br /><br />Home-Uh I know times are rough but you can not live with your mother.<br /><br />Car-Yeah I'm tired of compromising on this one. Oh I don't do hood cars :)<br /><br />Music-I listen to music all day & night. I need a man who is into music, don't care about the genre.<br /><br />Travel-I need a vacation (c)Jeezy. Lol, no really he has to be willing to travel.<br /><br />Sense of Humor-I am so hilarious so I need someone to make me laugh, this is a must.<br /><br />Ok Looking-I'm trying not to be so shallow. But stay in your league.<br /><br />Honest-Don't do liars. No need to lie to me b/c WHEN you get caught, it's a rap.<br /><br />Loyal-This is a big deal, I have to have loyalty.<br /><br />Some style-I can appreciate a white tee w/ a fresh hat & matching tennis shoes. I will quickly correct a fashion no-no.<br /><br />Respect Their Mom-If you don't respect your mother, you will not respect me.<br /><br />Values-Believe in right and wrong.<br /><br />Goals-I'm making moves so I need someone to grow with.<br /><br />Personality-Must<br /><br />I could write what I don't want but why? This is on a per case basis, lol. Oh and I am asking 20 questions about the past, maybe more. I can not deal with emotional baggage. I destroyed my suitcases the other day.Anisearieshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17315709302315465630noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2680200398827250664.post-26486133008066578382009-05-09T09:20:00.002-04:002009-05-09T11:13:23.106-04:00Better DaysOk I have too much going on in my head right now. The past year has been such a learning experience. I have to learn to go with my instincts. I know when a person is of no value to my life and sometimes I keep them around waaaay too long. I truly have high expectations for people and when they don't meet them, it upsets me. I try not to be judgmental and let people live their lives but I can not stand stupidity. Granted from the outside looking in, you never really know what is going on with someone.<br /><br />As I am exploring what issues I have, I am learning that I could be more patient with people. One of my friends said that you never know if you will be my friend one day to the next. I do not want anyone to feel like that but at the same time I expect a lot from the people that surround me. My parents frustrate me as well. I told my mom I am her BEST child and I feel that I am. When in doubt I read Psalm 27. I have become more spiritual and I will not let anyone stop me from doing what I feel I need to do in life. So even when my parents are on my nerves, GOD is there with the best support system ever.<br /><br />I talk about God with anyone who knows anything about the Bible. I feel like you have to believe in something. I have prayed for things to happen and they have with no effort on my part. I know he's real. I have also learned to be careful what I say and think because thoughts come to light. I pray for what I need and not want. Prayer is very powerful and after losing Angel I never thought I would say that. However, I know when I ask the Lord to hear me and search my heart, he does. Reading the Bible also makes me want to be a better person, it just gets hard some days. I am being the best Velenda I can be though.<br /><br />Friendship and what it means drives me crazy. I was use to having good friends and somewhere along the line, I found that I could not trust people anymore. I always say a friendship should be reciprocal and it should. I can be mean but I love my friemds. I feel like good friends is equivalent to family. That's why I cut people off so quick. If I can not trust you to have my best interest at heart, you can not be in my life. Over the years I have overlooked some things because I know I can be petty but I can not tolerate FAKE people around me. I love the close friends I have even though they drive me crazy :) I am implementing a serious screening for the next person(s) who enter my life. I am so tired of crazy and drama. Too blessed to be stressed :)Anisearieshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17315709302315465630noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2680200398827250664.post-42088284250295976472009-05-08T09:33:00.004-04:002009-05-08T10:56:31.771-04:00Welcome!!!<span style="font-family:georgia;">While I am absolutely sure that this blog is going to get me in trouble, I need to write. I keep a journal so I guess I will writing twice but it's therapeutic. I am awaiting my freedom right now. I need to move from my current living arrangement. That will be a separate blog :) I am trying to work on this bad attitude I have and it is a journey. I did a survey asking the people closest to me about my attitude and it was eye opening. I have been trying for years to become a better person but PEOPLE truly irritate me. Anyway I do not want people to walk on eggshells I actually appreciate honesty. So follow me as I work on myself. Suggestions are welcomed but if you know me, I probably wont listen. Work In Progress............</span><br /><br />P.S. If you don't already have it, you can purchase my book @ http://stores.lulu.com/aniseariesAnisearieshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17315709302315465630noreply@blogger.com2