God created something special and I know this. I am not being conceited but I know God has big things in store for me. I'm just impatient and a lil crazy :). Working on this attitude is my top priority and I know the devil tries his best to bring me down. I rebuke the devil in Jesus Name, Amen. All that being said don't let people detour your plans.
Monday, May 25, 2009
Letting Go....
I am finally realizing that I MUST let go of all the anger I carry. I have had minor set backs in life but I need to get over it. I have a chip on my shoulder about some things but also realize I put too much faith in people. I know that GOD is the only one who always follows through. I have a sadness about me because I don't have everything I want. I am blessed and I know it so I try not to complain too much.
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Prerequisites
Let me just say the next man in my life is going through a thorough screening process. In the past I have tried to keep an open mind and not judge books by their covers. No more. I am 28 years old and it is time to find my companion, best friend, life partner, and husband?? I would love to get married but I do not need the paper, just the commitment. This is the longest I have ever been single and it gave me time to prioritize. I am willing to accept 14 out of 16 but Men step your game up. I do not need a dependent, I need a companion.
He MUST:
Have some kind of spirituality-He doesn't have to be Bible toting but needs to know the Lord. Recognize that there is a higher power and respect that I believe in GOD and try to live by his word.
Job-Need I say more?
Education-He needs to stimulate my mind. I need book smart & a lil street smart.
Home-Uh I know times are rough but you can not live with your mother.
Car-Yeah I'm tired of compromising on this one. Oh I don't do hood cars :)
Music-I listen to music all day & night. I need a man who is into music, don't care about the genre.
Travel-I need a vacation (c)Jeezy. Lol, no really he has to be willing to travel.
Sense of Humor-I am so hilarious so I need someone to make me laugh, this is a must.
Ok Looking-I'm trying not to be so shallow. But stay in your league.
Honest-Don't do liars. No need to lie to me b/c WHEN you get caught, it's a rap.
Loyal-This is a big deal, I have to have loyalty.
Some style-I can appreciate a white tee w/ a fresh hat & matching tennis shoes. I will quickly correct a fashion no-no.
Respect Their Mom-If you don't respect your mother, you will not respect me.
Values-Believe in right and wrong.
Goals-I'm making moves so I need someone to grow with.
Personality-Must
I could write what I don't want but why? This is on a per case basis, lol. Oh and I am asking 20 questions about the past, maybe more. I can not deal with emotional baggage. I destroyed my suitcases the other day.
He MUST:
Have some kind of spirituality-He doesn't have to be Bible toting but needs to know the Lord. Recognize that there is a higher power and respect that I believe in GOD and try to live by his word.
Job-Need I say more?
Education-He needs to stimulate my mind. I need book smart & a lil street smart.
Home-Uh I know times are rough but you can not live with your mother.
Car-Yeah I'm tired of compromising on this one. Oh I don't do hood cars :)
Music-I listen to music all day & night. I need a man who is into music, don't care about the genre.
Travel-I need a vacation (c)Jeezy. Lol, no really he has to be willing to travel.
Sense of Humor-I am so hilarious so I need someone to make me laugh, this is a must.
Ok Looking-I'm trying not to be so shallow. But stay in your league.
Honest-Don't do liars. No need to lie to me b/c WHEN you get caught, it's a rap.
Loyal-This is a big deal, I have to have loyalty.
Some style-I can appreciate a white tee w/ a fresh hat & matching tennis shoes. I will quickly correct a fashion no-no.
Respect Their Mom-If you don't respect your mother, you will not respect me.
Values-Believe in right and wrong.
Goals-I'm making moves so I need someone to grow with.
Personality-Must
I could write what I don't want but why? This is on a per case basis, lol. Oh and I am asking 20 questions about the past, maybe more. I can not deal with emotional baggage. I destroyed my suitcases the other day.
Saturday, May 9, 2009
Better Days
Ok I have too much going on in my head right now. The past year has been such a learning experience. I have to learn to go with my instincts. I know when a person is of no value to my life and sometimes I keep them around waaaay too long. I truly have high expectations for people and when they don't meet them, it upsets me. I try not to be judgmental and let people live their lives but I can not stand stupidity. Granted from the outside looking in, you never really know what is going on with someone.
As I am exploring what issues I have, I am learning that I could be more patient with people. One of my friends said that you never know if you will be my friend one day to the next. I do not want anyone to feel like that but at the same time I expect a lot from the people that surround me. My parents frustrate me as well. I told my mom I am her BEST child and I feel that I am. When in doubt I read Psalm 27. I have become more spiritual and I will not let anyone stop me from doing what I feel I need to do in life. So even when my parents are on my nerves, GOD is there with the best support system ever.
I talk about God with anyone who knows anything about the Bible. I feel like you have to believe in something. I have prayed for things to happen and they have with no effort on my part. I know he's real. I have also learned to be careful what I say and think because thoughts come to light. I pray for what I need and not want. Prayer is very powerful and after losing Angel I never thought I would say that. However, I know when I ask the Lord to hear me and search my heart, he does. Reading the Bible also makes me want to be a better person, it just gets hard some days. I am being the best Velenda I can be though.
Friendship and what it means drives me crazy. I was use to having good friends and somewhere along the line, I found that I could not trust people anymore. I always say a friendship should be reciprocal and it should. I can be mean but I love my friemds. I feel like good friends is equivalent to family. That's why I cut people off so quick. If I can not trust you to have my best interest at heart, you can not be in my life. Over the years I have overlooked some things because I know I can be petty but I can not tolerate FAKE people around me. I love the close friends I have even though they drive me crazy :) I am implementing a serious screening for the next person(s) who enter my life. I am so tired of crazy and drama. Too blessed to be stressed :)
As I am exploring what issues I have, I am learning that I could be more patient with people. One of my friends said that you never know if you will be my friend one day to the next. I do not want anyone to feel like that but at the same time I expect a lot from the people that surround me. My parents frustrate me as well. I told my mom I am her BEST child and I feel that I am. When in doubt I read Psalm 27. I have become more spiritual and I will not let anyone stop me from doing what I feel I need to do in life. So even when my parents are on my nerves, GOD is there with the best support system ever.
I talk about God with anyone who knows anything about the Bible. I feel like you have to believe in something. I have prayed for things to happen and they have with no effort on my part. I know he's real. I have also learned to be careful what I say and think because thoughts come to light. I pray for what I need and not want. Prayer is very powerful and after losing Angel I never thought I would say that. However, I know when I ask the Lord to hear me and search my heart, he does. Reading the Bible also makes me want to be a better person, it just gets hard some days. I am being the best Velenda I can be though.
Friendship and what it means drives me crazy. I was use to having good friends and somewhere along the line, I found that I could not trust people anymore. I always say a friendship should be reciprocal and it should. I can be mean but I love my friemds. I feel like good friends is equivalent to family. That's why I cut people off so quick. If I can not trust you to have my best interest at heart, you can not be in my life. Over the years I have overlooked some things because I know I can be petty but I can not tolerate FAKE people around me. I love the close friends I have even though they drive me crazy :) I am implementing a serious screening for the next person(s) who enter my life. I am so tired of crazy and drama. Too blessed to be stressed :)
Friday, May 8, 2009
Welcome!!!
While I am absolutely sure that this blog is going to get me in trouble, I need to write. I keep a journal so I guess I will writing twice but it's therapeutic. I am awaiting my freedom right now. I need to move from my current living arrangement. That will be a separate blog :) I am trying to work on this bad attitude I have and it is a journey. I did a survey asking the people closest to me about my attitude and it was eye opening. I have been trying for years to become a better person but PEOPLE truly irritate me. Anyway I do not want people to walk on eggshells I actually appreciate honesty. So follow me as I work on myself. Suggestions are welcomed but if you know me, I probably wont listen. Work In Progress............
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